where am i?

i m lost..lose n lost!
lost in everything..
in every field..
i have to settle them myself..no one can i ask for help..
actually i need help..jz someone can help me..
but i must be independent!
i need to do it!show it out!i can!
promise to myself!
but really hard to do it..

heart break again..
feel hurt~ pain~
dono y
i need rescue..need help..
but..i m helpless..no more al the facilities tat i have b4..
y wil be like tat?
i dono!i dono!i dono!really dono!
can dont meet?
u have 2 minds now..
if dont meet,i wont be more mature..i wont grow up..
if meet,i rather dont meet..coz all of tat..really......
which is better..
or same?
if meet.. = heart break
if no = the friendship.....

i noe,if we stand together,u wont see me!
a while oso u wont..
i noe what level am i if comparing..

NOW..promise again to myself..
i wan keep away my heart
get away all the memories
i dont wan alive in those memories!!
i can stil alive without the them!