疯狂。。

不知道为什么这个月酱疯狂。。已经第五个post了。。
是时间太多了吗？
还是是太多事情发生了？
有时候我很想臭骂自己：林慧佳，够了！你太过分了！
我真的是太过分了。整个放假不知道做了什么。。
整天就只是睡觉，看戏，sms，上网，出门。。
看到书就想睡觉。。
太欠打了！
我想是时候醒了，别再睡了。。
多两个星期还要考试呢！但是你做了什么？
但是面对那些书我只想逃避，根本不想去动它们。
看到它们我很压力。。太多了！！
以前从来不会有这种感觉的。。
怎么办？

我希望每次看到这个post就能提醒自己，
答应过他们什么？
一定要去达到！只许成功不许失败！

我是问题少女吗？
总是很多问题在我身旁。。
友谊，是最大的问题。。
学业，问题也不小。
不过我愿意去挑战。。
我要一个人去挑战！
我要成为我自己的军师！
我不要再那么懦弱！
我必须更成长！
我一定要更坚强！
我一定会成功的！！

问题，烦恼！你们放马过来吧！
我不会再向你们低头了。
来吧！我准备好了！

现在我只想告诉他，
我欣赏他的坦诚。。
没专心在听也敢告诉我。。
我还想说，就把这一切当成我们两人的秘密吧！
千万别告诉其他人。我真的很相信你。
把它们封起来吧。。
收在深处。。
永远冰冻。。。

confusing..who is tat??

who is tat??
isn tat is u?
but u said no..
i chose to trust u..
hop u wont cheat me..^^
then hu is tat ppl..
i wanna noe..
helo!anonymous..hu r u?
may i noe u?
if u c this post can u answer me?
can u?
i really wanna noe hu u r..
very anxious to noe tat..
pls answer me when see al this

to joway--
i wont angry wif u de..
the case ad passed for a long time..
n..isn i dun wan tell u al my problem..
i noe tat u r so stress wif ur studies ad..
i wil embarrass if stil kacau u wif my all these nonsence problem..
so..tat is y i din tel u lor..^^
dun makan cuka ya?
wil u forgive me?

jz get agreement from sumone
he said tat i can continue do wat i like..
hahahaha..
but..not feel too freedom like b4 le..
coz..many things had changed..
too many things
too many ppl
until i cant remember..

i wan tell him
sometime i really wil scare u..
i dono wat r u think abt..
am i troublesome..
everytime got problem sure wil find u..
am i very annoying?
wil u impatient when hear all my problem??
then wil u dun wan to answer my cal like wat u treat her one day?
wil u jz ignore my sms like u ignore her?
wil u change into a new men tat i dont noe?
wil u jz ignore me whenever u meet me?
wil u let al dis things happen?
i really scare all dis wil happen..

promise me dun let these happen can?
my counselor,
my adviser..

he-me-zinger

hahaha..touching when saw zinger post..
if u all wan c go here- http://lemonxtea.blogspot.com

i make ur life bcum funny n meaningless??
not really understand this sentence e..
disturb me every holiday??
haha..put ur horse cum..^^
but sumtime i wil late reply ur msg.hop u wint agree oo..
n mayb sumtime i won reply u..tat mainly bcoz..my fon no money jor..or expired le..

u got problem..u find me
me got problem..i find him..
he got problem ler??duno hu wil he find..haha
but he is the most kesian..coz mayb he din find ppl..n mayb sumtime he wil hear tat my problem tat is such a nonsence for him..mayb gua..haha..
i most like the last sentence in the paragraph-[everyone don misunderstand ya..tat juz her best fren..]^^
most like it!!a long time din hear it..but dono y today ad heard it 3 times..haha
the 1st n 2nd is from my cousin..
3rd time is u..
haha..so happy..
jz BEST fren..
FOREVER de BEST FREN..

for me,he is isn a robot or mechine..
he is a exordinary boy..is a吃粥高手
haha..
if bcum his sis..so 'suei'..
every day nid to eat 'mueh'..
eat til berak!!
then the doctor fees..ler??he wont so good until sponsor me de..
haha..he not solve every problem for me la..
he jz give advise..guidance..like tat oni lor..
haha..juz tat simple..but i think his ear wil burst lor..
coz every time talk so long time wif me through fon..haha..

abt kj,tat time is he wan me give him chat wif u de..
so,i wan type things..sure he wil give de..
abo i beat him..not he beat me..haha..
he not violence lar..juz patern oni..

kaijie birth is to beat me
my birth is to help u
ur birth is to kacau exordinary boy
the boy birth is to solve my problem..
haha..a circulation..
like it..
wil kip go on n nvr stop!
^^

paiseh ya..if irritate u..
吃粥高手
sorry ya!

cham le..gai le..'穿帮了'

how cum like tat...
y will u noe all???
i wanna noe have u seen all my post?
what is ur feeling after seeing all this?
wil our relationship change?
or still maintain?
or will str8 gd bye?
i hop it will stil maintain..

will u cum my blog and vsit again??
will u stil comment in my cbox?
will u stil fren wif me like b4?
all these ans r important 4 me??
will u??

gai le..cham liao..
sure die le..
haiz..dono can say wat to xplain..
y u wan use tat name..let me tot tat is her..
but tat is all my fault..
i shouldn write all this articles..
i shouldn post them
i shouldn write abt u
i shouldn..i shouldn..

juz hop tat u wil not misuncerstand
i wil write tat isn bcoz I LIKE U..
is juz u r a very IMPORTANT fren in my life
an IMPORTANT fren tat appear in my life
ur thinking is special
ur guidance is useful
ur way to talk n passing msg is the way tat i can receive it the MOST..

so,conclusion...
i juz threat i as my BEST FREN!!


p/s:::(from chat box)
jia: anonymous-nw i oni really noe tat hu u r..at first i think is zinger..but at last i knew tat is (u)..

再次一个小时四十五分钟

那晚我哭了。。
不懂是开学后的第几次眼泪
我真的那么脆弱吗？
我是哭包吗？
我已经强忍着不哭，但面对那个人我始终做不到。
那人太过份了！！无法再忍耐，快暴毙了！被他气死了！

终于再次决定找他。。
也许我这样他会觉得我很烦
对我无可奈何
但我没有其他办法了
只有他的耳朵最好，最听话
只有他最有耐心。。
只有他最能给我意见
也只有他我能找。。
我想也只有他会抽时间听

很多事情我不懂
不明白
看不透
放不下
想太多
甚至不够成熟。。
很多时候我不懂我做的决定是否错误
我迷失了。。
我的想法，处世态度和那个人不一样
但我不懂为什么那人硬要我变得像【他】一样。。
【他】是【他】我是我，为什么我们一定要一样？！？！？！
我矛盾，我害怕
我怕一个决定会影响大家。。
但我必须改变。。
我几时应该改变？
变成一个可能大家都对我觉得陌生的女生？