Should I back to my blogging life?

Should I ?
Since more than 1 years ago, I had stopped blogging..
Should I back here?
A lot of happiness and a lot of sadness are hidden at here
everytime when I see back all the posts, sometime I laughed, sometime I feel emo..
sometimes, I even feel that I had lost myself..
but I know....this is the path of growing up..
No pain no gain...This sounds very true..
Should I back here? to share my uni life?
Should I back here? to share my mood and feelings?
Should I ??

《男孩与女孩》-- 灵感创作

一名女孩深爱着一名男孩。不过，男孩心中住着女孩A。女孩A是男孩的初恋情人。当年， 女孩A为了目送男孩出国留学，在她从学校赶往机场的路途中，由于过度伤心，再加上她心脏本来就衰弱，女孩就这样什么也没留下，就离开了人世。

女孩知道这件事后，深知她与男孩是不可能在一起的。男孩的心里，永远住着一个很爱很爱他的女孩A。

然而，有一天，奇迹出现了！男孩开始对女孩痴痴地等待感到动心。他接受了女孩的告白 。。。

虽然他们成功在一起了，但是一切没有像女孩想象中的甜蜜。男孩对待女孩的态度还是一样的冷淡。从旁人眼光中，他们根本就像是一对陌生人。

一开始时，女孩尝试迁就男孩。她认为需要给男孩一些时间，忘掉过去的回忆。然而，男孩的态度不但没有好转，反而变本加厉。女孩感到很痛心，但又舍不得放弃男孩。女孩因此开始失眠，半夜经常被噩梦惊醒，精神状态开始变得有点不正常。。

女孩开始回忆起他俩之间的约会。。。。。。他发现，悲伤的回忆占了大部分。约会时，他们不能光明正大地牵手，因为男孩始终没有勇气接受这段恋情。他怕一旦牵她的手，他会无法忘记她曾经也牵过女孩A的手。然而，让男孩牵起自己的手，是女孩最大的心愿。当两个人一起坐在户外时，男孩限定女孩不能与他坐得太靠近。因为男孩没有勇气让这段恋情曝光。在车上时，女孩无法像其他人一样，靠着自己爱人的肩膀。。。女孩每次都只能默默流泪，默默承受一切的痛苦。

女孩开始在想，开始这段恋情，是否是个错误的决定。她是不是一开始就不该介入男孩的生活？她开始探索，男孩是不是真的爱他的？为何她的恋爱不能与其他的女孩一样，甜甜蜜蜜，卿卿我我？

于是女孩写了一首诗歌，来表达自己的伤痛。

你爱我吗？
如果你是爱我的，为何迟迟不敢光明正大，牵起我的手？
你爱我吗？
为何至今，你仍然对她念念不忘？
她，真的那么难忘记吗？
她，真的那么难解决吗？
是你自己不肯解决，还是你其实就不想解决？

你是爱我的吗？
如果是，为何对我还是不闻不问？
我是你家中的家具吗？
还是我其实连家具都不如？

一直以来，我很想问你，
你是爱我的，还是爱她？
但是，我始终没勇气追问下去。。
每次我一提及她
你都回避
每次我一问起她
你都无视我的问题
每次一提到她
你就说你压力
你到底是爱自己多一些，还是爱我多一些？

你工作再忙、再累
我都会体谅
唯独你对她之情
是我无法容忍的

男孩，我爱你。
但是，就是因为太爱你
所以我无法从容你
因为太爱你
我必须放下你
让我回到一个人的生活
让我重新好好地爱自己。。。

灵感创作篇 

By : Jia

Sticky !

Tuesday,

Someone from KL

bring me a bottle of Sticky

without my knowledge.

I receive a message suddenly when I just reach tuition centre.

The message enlighten me for the rest of the hours of the day.

XD

When I reach home, I saw this on my table !!

I'm very happy !! 

=))

See !

How beauty the paper bag is !!?
I love Blue~

The bottle is just so small.

Yet, it is putted in such a big paper bag !

@@

funny ! haha!

Then, I overturn it to observing the small round bottle.

Suddenly, I saw the price..

quite shocking !

Rm19.90 for a small bottle....

This is what we call Sticky.

Traditional hand-made yummy

By :  Jia

Countdown Towards 2013 !

7 morning 8 morning,

9am, my alarm start ranging !

I jump up from my bed and start the day --> 31/12/12

11.45am --> depart from my house to fetch Jian

about 12.10pm --> Fetch Peng and Ching

1.01pm --> Reach Jusco, Bandar Perda

We lepak in Jusco and have our lunch in KFC

3.35pm --> finally ! Ang See Boon reach Jusco to fetch us go to Eastin Hotel !

We all wait until grow mushroom in Jusco ad @@

4.30pm --> Reach Queensbay Mall to find Kar Ho to take Room Key Card

Finally, we reach Eastin Hotel !

we kinda shock when step in the room.

It's so small !!!!

and, it's not enough place for 7 of us to sleep !

Luckily, See Boon is here.

He and Yong Jian move and replace the beds and table.

After replacement, I think the beds is enough for 9 people to sleep

(Make assumption that all people sleep straight and not moving or chaging posture when sleeping)

5.30pm --> See Boon suggest us to walk around the hotel to see the surrounding and service.

Here have Gym Room, Swimming Pool, Spa and Mosque !

Peng suggest us to go mosque together ! Hahaha!

Then, we disscuss about whether want go gym or swim.

As a result, because of most of us dint bring enough cloth and inner wear,

so, we decide not to swim but go do gym together XD

It's my first time to do gym ! excited !!

(Sorry for no photos are taken when in the gym room)

And, something serious and out of expected was happened in Yoga Room which located inside the gym room.

err, I think not to say at here better because 家丑不可外扬....

6++ pm --> Leave gym room.

I think I am the most idiot person at there because I dont know how to use those mechines.

I dont know that in order to generate the mechine,

I have to start to run / step first so that the mechine have enough power to be generated.

I AM DAMN IDIOT !!!

Then, bathing time !

Peng and Ching told Jian and See Boon that I bath very slow

and ask them fast fast bath before I decide to bath @@

gao lat !

Actually, I want to say that, I ad try my very best to bath very fast le.

If wan faster some more, my legs and hands will 'pak si kat' liao XD

8pm --> Daimoku and Gongyo together before leaving hotel ! 

We did our last D&G of 2012 together ! memorable !

before leaving room, let's snap a photo =D

Peng, me and Ching =)

At lobby, we saw 2 big bear bear !

They are so cute !!!!

* Spot See Boon's face. hahaha! *

8.30pm --> Journey of Hunting Dinner. 

Finally, spot our target

at Dave's Dally !

yummy !!!

9.30pm --> Queensbay Mall Indoor Concert !

This angle not bad ! XD 

This lady ! her voice is so real !!!

Amazing !!!

when waiting firework,

see these 4 siao lang @@

* spot Kar Ho's curly tongue *

after countdown,

snap photo happily !!! XD

on the way walking back to Eastin Hotel,

the colour of our glowing bracelets are so nice !

I like purple one!

(actually it's pink but dont know why it look like purple)

12++ am --> at Eastin Hotel again

photo session again ! hahaha!

very first, guys first.

Ching look cute in this photo !

feel like wanna cubit her face !

XDD

Me and Kar Ho's teeth~

@@

Hello, my dear 2013 !

Bye, my beloved 2012 !

See you, my 2014 ~  

Ginna's 2013 !

with Hotel's menu.

It's super expensive.

RM 400 plus plus for a bottle of wine !

Oh my my....

1am --> play 真心话大冒险！

we done a lot of zor siao eh kang kui ~

cannot share at here as we all had promise to keep them as secret   :-I

sorry lahh ~ 

4am --> bed's time! Light Off !

* we all neither brushing teeth, washing face

nor bathing before sleep after coming back from count down.

I know that we  are very dirty *

whole night cant sleep properly , seriously.

chit-chatting sound , kicking's sound, water flowing's sound keep ringing !

and, the most cham is ! 

Kar Ho forget to off his alarm !

Oh No !!

6am/7am, his alarm rang !

Oh My My !!!! @@

9.30am --> Ching's mum phone her and causing whole room wake up .

without brushing

then, we have pillow's war !

7 people snatching 4 pillows.. Zzz..

very pity the pillows because kena we all snatch lai snatch ki..

about 10am --> brush + bath time !

This guy show us his towel 

and keep mentioning : "It's my new towel ! I purposely bring it here !! "

hahahaha!

After bathing and while waiting See Boon bathing

Have a family photo here XD

zor siao again !!

* spot Kar Ho face ! jin chuby ! *

11.30am --> check out !!!

go to Queensbay Mall to hunt our brunch

This time, we hunt

Nando's !

We all dont know how to see the menu.

Luckily, got See Boon.

is him again..

He teach us how to see and order.

my set ! extra hot, 1/4 chicken

side : curry rice and forget the name ad..hahahaha!

photo before eating =)

say cheese ~ ~ ~

2pm --> decide to watch movie before back 

we watch Ah Boys To Men !

Laugh die us !

I most remember the 'CB Leaf'' de part.

wahahahahah!

after buying ticket ! =DD

5pm --> back to mainland !

5.40pm --> decide to go Sunway to eat Burger King !

6 ++ pm --> leave Sunway and continue our journey to home.

6.45pm --> Peng and Ching reach home !

7.0+pm --> Jian reach home.

7.20pm --> I reach my home sweet home !

Thanks See Boon for willing to join us and fetch us during these 2 days.

Most of the time I know he is just 配合 us and not wanting to dissappoint us.

really very thanks to him !

without him, I think our countdown plan will not so smooth and funny.

Thanks See Boon.

and Thanks to all friends who had join the countdown.

It's a very great ending of my 2012 and a great starting of my 2013.

I Loye You All !

Gambateh together in our 2013 !

Fight till the end !

Fight toward our target !

Fight and must success !

 By : Jia

Get Ready for New Year Count Down~

hoo yeah !
Now, words cant use to describe my mood again !
I gonna pack luggage and get ready for new year count down !
Very 期待 !!! and scare bring not enough things >,<
Hope tomorrow everything go smooth and success
no any accident occur !

next post will update about New Year Count Down~
Stay Tune ~

By : Jia

Belated Birthday Present

Today is a very good day ~

In the early morning, when I was chanting before training start,

suddenly, a botak man appear and the atmosphere become very funny !

It's unacceptable when saw the botak man!

I think her girl friend surely will get shock when meet with Shi Xiong XD

Laugh die me !!

sorry, I can't control myself to stop laughing at you >,<

Then, after training, Jojo said got something wan give me.

I treat it as a joke at first because she told me in a joking style~

then, suddenly, she shows me a blue box and she said,

This is your birthday present !

Very shock on that moment ! seriously !

very 舍不得 to tear off the present.

so, we keep shouting in Yee Yin's car =.=

and the present really very nice !

and causing me keep saying 'Huisheh' until I reached my home.

hahaha!

Thanks buggy~ XD

see ! beautiful leh ? dont jealous dont jealous~ wakakaka

It is an album which full of our memory =)

Peng, Ching and Jojo,

Because of your perfect birthday present,

you three had cause me experiencing serious headache about what to give you all on your birthday next year 

@.@

hahaha!

By : Jia

Christmas of 2012

Honestly to say, every year when Christmas is just around the corner

I wont feel happy but sad

because after celebrating Christmas,

it means school holiday has came to an end and it's time to fight again.

However, this year, I feel super-duper happy when count down for Christmas and celebrating it

because it means I get back my freedom after fighting for 5 years in secondary school 

and it's time for me to have a real holiday which last about 5 months!

wahahahahaha! 

**my feeling can't be expressed through words now!!!**

24.12.2012

Christmas Countdown Party at Jojo's house

Finally, I can celebrate Christmas eve at outside XD

coincidently,

we are Fipper Gang !

Sky Blue - me

Dark Blue - Jojo

Red - Peng

Black - Ching

When the 4 girls meet together ~

snapping photo is something we must do !

hahaha

25.12.2012

My brother jio me to watch movies ~

We decide to watch them on tomorrow

we will watch

cz 12 by Jackie Chan

and

The Hobbit : An Unexpected Journey

weee~~~~

here are the tickets !!

really very high now!!

How about your Christmas ? ^^

By : Jia

Ep 2 - August 2012

I passed my August by swimming in the water~

unbelievable, right?

I've stop swimming since June of 2011, if I dint make a mistake.

Suddenly,

My eldest brother jio me to take part in a swimmingthon on 25.8.2012

The requirement is,

Participants have to swim for 1 hour continuously.

at first, I rejected him because I have no confident.

But, after thinking, I decide to challenge myself!

I BELIEVE I CAN ! ~ ~

I BELIEVE I COULD ! ~ ~

so, I started to sink in the pool again since begin of August.

I deeply believe that all my classmates and friends

already start preparing for the coming SPM Trial exam.

However, I am still so restless and busy practising my swimming skills.

How dare I am, isn't it?

As a consequence for my action and decision,

I score badly in my trial exam

I've cried over the spilt milk.

How embarrassing!

Let's see some photo of swimmingthon =)

We swim at the same time but in the different lane from 12am-1am..

Abit forget already..haha!

After finished our 'duty' , we played in the pool~ XD
I try to stand on my bro's shoulder to build 1.1

hahahaha!

I am very scare at the moment.
I also dont know why I will scare..

Scare for no reason..

How noob I am ?! >.<

My cousin, Kai Jie

a former gymboy.

I think you all sure can recognise by just seeing his standing pose.

So professional and steady !

We feel very hungry after swimming for 1 hour.

We have our 'supper' beside the pool.

The food which prepare by the organiser is so delicious!!

p/s - This photo have Micheal Jackson's feeling XDD

see! we kek pattern in the pool..

Luckily dint disturd tio other swimmers who are still swimming.

:-p

Have a hot beverage to warm my body.
Wind keep blowing in the night..

Thanks brother for teaching me swimming. =)

I am very happy while swimming in the pool. =)

<3 p="p">

by: Jia

Ep 1 - July 2012

----Memory drawn back to the date 17.7.2012----

When I reach home from school at 2.45pm,

I saw my mum was sitting at the door and look very sad

Out of caring and curiosity, I ask her what had happened ?

She told me that,

....

.................................................

.......

My grandma, had passed away peacefully in the morning

I got shocked and stunned !

Why so sudden ?!?!!

I can't accept !!

So, very quick and rush, I bathed and packed all my things and back to Kedah.

Of course, I met with all my uncles, aunties and cousins..

We all, well, I think about 13 people,

gathered in the house and served all the visitors every night.

Well,  all my cousins are still naive and played around in the house..

Let's see what had they done !

This fellow asked me use all pillows to 'wrap' him 

so that he looks like a boy who have been caught in a big box

@@

He laughed happily when all the pillows fell down

He then requested me to wrap him again

ALAMAK!!!!

I ... speechless at the moment ....

He keep begging me.

I wrappedhim again..

Another cousin pop out and say : sis! help me take photo with him!

zzz

Soka Gakkai's members visit us to pay their respect to my grandma.

Have a nice chat with them on the night =)

Here come the last day of the ceromony,

It's Saturday morning

It's also my grandma birthday

We all have been 'ordered' to wake up sipek early at 8am

(I slept at 4.30am @@)

to eat birthday cake

and

eat 寿面

I can't imagine how my mum wake me up..

hahaha!

maybe she 'gusty' with me?

hahahaha!

Then, when in cleaning process,

we realised a problem !

The flowing of water is stucked!

So, my brother help the chef to remove the water.

*ignore his hand*

Then, see how we played with the pig's tail @@

(suddenly feel that we are so not respect to grandma)

but I think she will surely forgive us one~

Grandma, si boh? ^^

the very first, Tzer wei kena sin XD

then, my turn~ haha!

This man also kena! hahaha!

My mum's dad kena also~ @@

My mum's turn~

Dad's turn~

I know we are very naughty =,=

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The ceremony ended on 21.7.2012

My school exam started on 23.7.2012

I will never forget the way I study throughout the days.

It's totally not enough time !

Gonna crazy!

The day before Physics exam,

Kui Fong suddenly appear in my house

and show me this!

very touch!

Thanks Kui Fong ! <3 p="p">

Suddenly, I found this !

Dont know how to express my feeling.

but, anyway,

thank you for appearing in my life and brings a lot of joy + happiness to me

=)

This's how

I passed my July.

with a sudden news.

With school exam.

with dance practice.

with performance on 22.7.2012 morning.

with tears and smile.

<3 p="p">

Grandma, I miss you.

Your granddaughter,

Hui Jia